Feeling the thought

My friend says I need to allow my readers to visualize what I'm saying: It's as if I need to use examples, real life situations, to explain my thought. But isn't there a merit to esotericism? Isn't there a reason why I write the way I do; hasn't my writing progressed in a certain way up to the way it is now? And this along with the progression of my thought. I don't think my writing is too difficult to understand. This is non-sense. But my friend might be right in his implication. Visualize means to see. But is to see closer to to feel than to think? We get to the feeling of the thought from thought, and to get to the feeling from seeing we must go through thought. But sometimes we can feel what we see without even thinking it, for instance in a picture of a young sudanese girl withering away from lack of nourishment, or in a horror movie when the alien jumps out onto the screen.

But how are we meant to visualize the thought that the I exerts itself as an I, creates more of an acknowledgement of itself, through the act of killing, of murder. Its as if the worm that squirms beneath my foot, in its death, creates the that in the that I am, makes the I more than a sight in the distance that is never recognized, makes the I immediately recognized, respected, and appreciated to another being, even though that being has to die in the process.

It's about feeling the thought, and remembering the thought through the feeling. The thought, when understood, exerts an impact. This impact can be remembered when a similar instance turns up, when one is reminded of the thought by another thought, and the impact returns.

This is evidenced in the dreadful and terrible impact "the sleep of reason" caused in me. I could not sleep, afraid that I would be left behind on the path to the godhead. I believed it my duty to keep up with the quest, and would not be left behind while sleeping.